When I was younger I always believed I had this hidden artistic ability. I believed if I just kept searching and trying new things I would find my talent. I tried all sorts of things, and loved it all but never really felt like I had found my talent until I found cake decorating. My first cake was a two-tier basket weave cake for my parents 25th anniversary (I believe its either go big or go home when it comes to cakes!). For the next 8 years I slowly built a love and a small business doing something I absolutely loved.
So why the hiatus from this art that I truly loved? A couple years ago I went big and bold as usual, and I had my first real cake disaster. It seems silly now but it made me think I didn't have the skills I thought I did and I was just fooling myself. It wasn't just any cake, it was special, it was what I felt was the pinnacle of my abilities, it was for someone special to me and it hurt bad to see it fall. Fear and failure got the best of me and I walked away.
But I miss the fulfillment that making things you love brings, and I have searched for something more but just couldn't find it. I miss the satisfaction of mastering new skills and the smell of sugar on my skin after a long day elbow deep in icing. I miss creating something out of sugar and having people actually consider not eating something so delicious just because it looks to amazing!
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